Okay, so I swore I wouldn't be with someone again... I didn't want a relationship past friendship... I wanted to try to heal my heart, cover my wounds, and wear my scars as battle armor.

Then I started playing a game online just to pass some time. Of course there were other people all over the world on there too, just like me. Though, one in particular from Australia seemed to stand out bright as a candle in the blackness of my world.

So early October comes along and I'm playing this game (Evony) like the last few nights before. And this guy comes on and a strange conversation begins. It revolves around shagging, sheep, and various other oddities.

Well, the main guy who was (as I called him, sheepman) the main guy talking, happened to start speaking with me in private messages during game chat. About 5 days later, private game messages weren't enough to say all we could say so we went to in game mail.

After another few days we weren't able to say all we wanted there either so we exchanged emails. From there, we started to email each other about all kinds of things from music and movies to the events of our own days. So by this time, we've been talking, just us, for nearly 3 weeks now.

We exchanged pictures and phone numbers. After another couple of days, I finally had to tell mum. Well, the guy sent me some money to buy some flowers for mum and a note to help break the ice. Mum at first was nervous, but another couple of days went by and she began to warm up to it. So now, I have a partner and I somehow find it funny that I can't remember myself being this happy.

He and I connect on more levels than anyone I have ever known. He knew nothing about me and shared things about himself first and everything he liked was everything I liked. We think alike, we act and speak the same, and he is moving to the states to be with me and help me take care of my daughter. I will be divorced from the ex by X-mas and my partner will be moving over at the end of January.

His name is Jayson and he is the most wonderful man I have ever known. He's asked me to marry him. I said yes! I can't wait until he is finally here but for now I have to exercise patience and keep telling myself that January gets closer everyday.

I can tell him anything and he will not judge me for it. He accepts me for who I am in spite of my weirdness. I can be me around him and that's okay. And I would do the same for him. I can accept him as easily as he can accept me.

I know most people are apprehensive of relationships that begin online, but several people I know have had extremely successful relationships that all began online. I will be one of them, as the internet (bless the ones who invented it) is the one thing that brought me to my soulmate.

I can say without a doubt in my heart that I finally feel as though I belong now. For my whole life, I have wondered where it was that I was meant to be. Now I believe I was supposed to be where I am all along, waiting for the time when I would meet the man I was to spend my life with. And my time has come. He found me and I found him. And nothing can tear us apart. Our hearts beat for each other and I believe in the blackness of my wicked little goth heart that we were meant to be together.


Hopelessly In Love,
~ Ashe


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